Things he doesn't know, and that it's too late to worry about now.

Hmmm...I'll make a list. I'm rather fond of those. Little backstory: He's my ex. Also was my best friend. (This was condition is at his request. We are no longer to acknowledge each other's existence.)

• His boyfriend did lie. He told me they'd never date because he knew it would kill me.
• I'm not blind, I know he's using me to get stuff and to go places. It's not that I'm stupid enough to let him walk all over me, it's that I'm in love enough not to care.
• His birthday present was going to be backstage, VIP passes to his favorite band.
• Whenever I cry, I'm an overemotional bitch. Whenever someone else cries, he runs to them. It kills me.
• I carved the word "Lies" on to my ankle so that whenever I walk I feel it and am reminded of everything he's done to me.
• He accuses other people of trying to use him, but he uses people worse than anyone else I know.

And the thing that would upset him the worst:

• That Ipod he lost? We had insurance on it.

On Economics, Lying, and Proxy Surfers.

Have you ever missed a day of class, and then when you're back the next day, trying to catch up, you feel like they covered about 10 chapters instead of the half of one they were supposed to? That was just one part of today, which felt like the entire world felt some malicious hatred towards me. Not to mention that everyone kept biting me for some reason...but that's a different story. Next item: Lying. Actually, screw that. I'll go into that in the next post. I realized today that I'm going to morph into one of those compulsive blogger types merely for the fact that I don't feel comfortable putting my emotions into words for other people to listen to. Finally: Proxy Surfers. Entirely useful except when you need to use a searchbar, check something off, or use a script. And seriously, you never realize how much you use those three little things until you can't.

RedBull&&Chocolate

Basically, I'm fueled by it. Well, that and Ramen. But as that website name is already taken, I'll make due. Wow this is really awkward. I realize that I don't really know what to say. That's alright I'm sure I'll get better at this. Just as I'm sure that no one's going to read this. So I can have stuff out in the open for people to POTENTIALLY read, but I'll tell no one about it, so unless they happen to come across this happy little page by accident, they'll never know it exists. That kind of makes me feel better. That way I can use this blog to post all of my ideas, any writings, designs, etc. Well, I guess that about wraps up this first post. I'm pretty sure I've covered all the basics. ^^